Christmas Cheer

I was thinking it would be fun to see if I could get people to open up enough to sing Jingle Bells with me। I decided to go to 3rd street promenade in Santa Monica cause I love being outside where there’s lots of people to watch.



Thursday afternoon was a grayish day with everyone rushing to get their holiday shopping done। I wanted to surprise people I didn't know
I imagined myself a playful elf spreading joy At first I was ignored, as if having fun was totally off limits। As I continued to reach out, I connected up to an elderly homeless man who knew all the words to Jingle Bells. He really intrigued me. I wondered what his life story was.

Then, I met up with a man in a black turban from England who was so sweet।
I wondered, how would I feel spending the holidays in a foreign country?
Would it be lonely or exciting?

Some teenage boys with tattoos were surprisingly open.
We really connected.All in all, I felt proud, proud that I opened my heart and theirs.

What have you been up to over the holidays??

COMING OUT

For the past few years I have isolated myself …I don’t have any friends, I don’t speak to my family and everything I do is music / business related.

I kinda feel like Clubber Lang from Rocky who said… I live alone। I train alone. I’ll win the title alone.

But now it’s time to expose myself…to become naked for all to see and experience. This “title” that I’m after is not something I can do alone. I have to start letting people in and that’s a very difficult thing for me.

On the outside I project myself as being easy come easy go but on the inside…I trust no one.